Hello 2011!

I abandoned this blog long enough - I have another blog but I promise that I will still update this blog as well.. This blog is my baby... I remember the trouble searching for a perfect template for this blog.. And I finally have one, which suits my taste.. (:

FYI, I also have another blog here:

http://ichbinyosh.blogspot.com

You are more than welcome to follow me there, give comments or just dropping by to say hi. I will still write on both blogs but this blog is pretty personal. I wrote my ups and downs, my life journey and what not.. And I even got some bashing from losers on Facebook for being outspoken. They read this blog and decided that they know everything about me. You don't know me. Even I don't know myself that well. So hush. Stop pretending like you do. Filthy hypocrites!

So yeah. I guess this will be my post for today. My first for year 2011.

If you have any dramas, don't bring it here. I don't like drama bitches around.

Have a good day ahead! (:

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Sometimes terfikir jugak..

Buat apa ada kekasih hati yang tak tahu nak memujuk lansung? Memang I suka marah-marah bila hormon tengah macam orang gila, takkan itu pun tak boleh nak faham?


Rimas la macam ni.. Dahla suka hang up telephone macam budak kecik. COME ON LA, GROW A PAIR AND FUCKING GROW UP ALREADY.

I'm so sick of your selfish and childish behavior! If my way of cooling down is by ranting and nagging 24/7, LET ME DO SO. Don't stop me by doing otherwise, you fucking moron!

AAAAAGH! TENSION GILA!!

FAV QUOTE.. evah!

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out
of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at
my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe

Laziness strikes!

Last week, I was hospitalized for a week due to a viral fever. Sounds crazy, eh? But it is. I haven't been into the hospital for over 10 years and suddenly, I fell sick and the rest, is history. Thank you Air Asia for giving me the chance to stay in the hospital after oh-so-many years.

Today, I had a good time taking Mommy out to Sunway Pyramid. We ate at Ichiban Ramen, then I bought her some toiletries and stuff. And also, her favorite lipstick from The Face Shop. I know that what I did is nothing to brag about but seeing the glow on my Mom's face is PRICELESS. Thank you Mommy for taking such a good care of me when I was sick. I love you so much!

Relationship wise - everything is OKAY. I miss my boyfriend so much.

untitled.

Yes, you read that right. This entry is completely untitled.

At the moment, what I can think of is.. I hope I can survive going through these pains.

And stop thinking about how worthless I am.

I am not worthless. You are going to miss me when I'm gone. Don't doubt that - its gonna happen very soon.

Whewww, after oh-so-long!

First thing first... *drum rolls*

I've got a new job! And I've been working at my new work place for over 3 months now (sorry for not updating.. I don't think I have readers on this blog anyways so yeah. Yupp.)

And I don't really have anything to write, except for the fact that my life was a huge mess two months ago.. But, i sorted it out epically. I don't even know how the hell did I do it but I did, okay. Isn't revenge is sweet? AMBIK KAU! :3

OK - now that sounds a bit scary.

Alright, currently I'm undergoing a training for 3 weeks ++ and I'm now on my second week. Time flies so darn fast, don't you think? At first, I mean, for the first two days, IMO, I think the training is boring yada yada and I was dying to go back to work.. but as the days go by.. I started to enjoy the company of my new foreign friends, they're pretty cool peeps! :) Well, the rest of my colleagues are cool too, lucky moi :P

Mmm..

Its 2 am, and I have to get up in less than 4 hours. My back hurts so bad and I guess its a sign for me to go to bed.

Oh, one more think.. I'm kinda annoyed right now but I'm not gonna write about "it" here. I have many lurkers lurking over me so I don't want nasty rumors to start and spread like wild fire. I don't need any at the moment so yeah, I think I'm gonna STFU and suck my right thumb while pretending everything is okay.

Awesome. Now, bed time.

Nite!

takde tajuk please..

Sometimes aku terfikir.. sampai bila aku nak jadi macam ni. Still di takuk lama without any perubahan.

Yang pasti, saat ni, hati aku sakit dan perit diterjah pelbagai situasi-situasi yang kurang manis dan memberi tekanan.

I'm not looking forward to date orang kaya. Ya rabbi, mintak simpang lah. Aku ni bukan mata duitan. If I am a gold digger, dah mampus pakcik-pakcik pariah yang kaya aku ranapkan. I just need someone who is financially secure, tak payah kaya raya. Kalau pandai menguruskan duit, memang bagus sangat-sangat la. Mommy selalu cakap, "Jangan jadi hamba duit.." so, itulah yang aku cuba terapkan dalam life aku ni.. Cuma yang tak bestnya, aku ni sekarang dah ada double responsibility, tak macam dulu. Stress memang stress, macam-macam aku fikir sampai kadang-kadang aku rasa, it affects my relationship with other people as well. Tak boleh tido malam, jiwa jadik kacau.. Haih.. Entahla.

Dek kerana macam-macam benda yang circulate around aku nih, for once, I need an escapism. With orang yang aku sayang. Pegi tengok wayang ke, round-round KL ke.. Or jalan-jalan cari makan ke (sebab aku memang suka makan, cuma lately ni selera macam kureng sikit..). Tapi, malangnye, tu sumer mimpi-mimpi indah aje. Takkan jadik realiti pun..

Oh, how much it hurts, thinking about it buat aku rasa macam nak nangis.

Have you ever felt about running away - to a place where everyone around you are strangers?

Honestly, I do. I feel like dumping everything behind and start over a new life. My heart is aching too much. I listen to other people problems' a lot, but no one is willing to be there to hear my ups and downs. My sorrows and happiness.

Or mungkin aku ni dah ditakdirkan membujang sampai ke tua?

Tak tau lah nak cakap apa.